Well, its been ancient since I last posted.
Felt like my blog’s gotten spiderwebs.
Ahh… Haizz.
Ara, ara.
It’s time to sadist. XD
Wouldn’t it be nicer if everybody died in that flood 7000 years ago?
If there was no apostle who survived, humanity would already have ended.
What I could ascertain was, we were not fated to end that day 7000 years ago.
I feel that all these is just a farce.
Even reality could be an illusion.
If so, how could we come to terms with it?
Even reality feels so surreal sometimes.
I don’t even know where my consciousness lies anymore.
Everytime I gaze into the mirror, it gazes back me.
The ‘me’ in the mirror may be a mere reflection, but I feel that it is something more than that.
For some reason, I feel obliged to try mirror hypnosis.
That is, to make myself believe that the ‘Me’ in the real world and the ‘Me’ in the mirror are seperate entities.
Hahas. I want to try it so bad. XD
Running out of time and I’m not really in the sadist mood right now.
Haiz. Byes~
Didn’t get to post for so long!
Haiz. Phone changed, running on scedule and working all on the same time.
T.T
Wanted to learn hacking but can’t do so due to time constraint.
Well, so today I went Sakae with parents to eat. For the first time in so many months, I ate till I was full.
Feeling guilty now, haiz.
Well, yesterday, I was ‘lectured’ in Audi.
Ya, by Joy and Clara, saying that I’m too obsessed with dieting and being skinny.
Oh well, it’s true by they way. Haiz.
Mm… To tell the truth, it kinda hurts when they put it that way.
Ah well, whatever.
Seriously wanted to shoot back when they said some things but… Always I acted blur.
AFK-ed a few times because I didn’t want to read what they wrote, and also to search for the Pandora battery hack.
Also to read up IP hacking. :3
I don’t want to type it all out.
I want to eat mochi ice cream now. (Diverting subject.)
Because a lot of people know my blog already.
Shall end here. My computer session isn’t free you know?
And my scedule is like falling FOUR DAYS BEHIND ALREADY.
Will seriously lose at this rate. Might as well give up with Pride and just hand in the money to him.
Haiz.
Consequences~
My heart is in pieces…
My appetite is like getting from BAD to WORSE nowadays.
Seriously, I feel that having 2 meals a day is so much, let alone 3 meals a day.
Ya I agree I’m obsessed with dieting.
So like… Today afternoon had only like half a packet of instant noodles and I felt like puking.
Then during work, I don’t feel hunger pangs at all since I’m like in a food infested environment ALL THE TIME so I don’t even get hungry.
Ya. And I down coffee like water and then water like oxygen everyday. So my stomach always feel bloated from liquids.
I keep telling my mom not to fix or leave leftover food for me after work because, I feel nauseous everytime I see it.
It’s like a rejection reaction upon food after work and I had to control myself from throwing up all the food I had gorged myself with.
Seriously, when I basically SEE food (like rice or noodles), I feel like throwing up.
That’s crazy.
I could basically get all the expensive food laid out infront of me and I wouldn’t even touch them.
Haiz. I think there’s a worm inside my stomach causing me so much distress.
~.~ And I figured out NEVER to take Peppermint Milk Tea cos it’s so disgusting lor and makes all your insides go haywire.
Peppermint Red Tea is the correct choice. Then again, the SweetTalk person did not hear me correctly and gave me the milk tea version and me being the POLITE guy I am I didn’t even complain.
Ended up I had a stomachache. T.T
So much for being Mr. Nice Guy.
Whatever.
Have to work on my Sakae menu memorization.
Although with my Wifi on I have zero motivation to do it cos I’m addicted to reading Bloody Monday.
So like… Between manga and job, I would choose manga. Gladly.
If manga was my job, hohoho I’m in heaven! :3
Ya and let me reinstate that I AM BLOODY FAT these days, although I successfully slimmed down a week or so ago.
Ya blame it on irregular meals and late eating hours. And lack of exercise.
Whatever. I’m fat.
Bye.
My brother should have been named Dylan instead.
Because Dylan translated straight into chinese is 低能儿.
He talks like one, acts like one and seriously is one.
I can’t fathom why he’s like that and what happened to make him like that but it’s getting on my nerves.
Seriously, he can be irritating at ALL times and won’t fail to crap every second of the day.
And he’s the most useless human in my home but he wants to take charge.
Talk about dim witted.
And when he does his homework he can do it for a year without even finishing one homework.
His attitudes are ape-like and so are his blathering voice.
In short, I want to slam his head into the wall into a bloody mesh.
Or put his arm into liquid nitrogen and knock it with a hammer so that the hand instantly shatters.
I might as well start making an incision on his skin and slowly slowly peel off his skin and let him experience holiness.
Crap. So I hate him very much and if my parents hadn’t made the truce contract with me that I’m not to harm my brother in any other way, I would’ve killed him disposed him in the sewers ever since he started to learn how to talk.
Ah well… Whatever.
And my dad told me to be more… “Proactive” when it comes to family get-togethers.
Like hell. I’m used to being alone and in a crowd it makes my head go boom boom boom with headaches.
I don’t even want to watch TV with my parents and siblings unless its a show I really like… Like Fringe..
Cos its really irritating sitting in a noisy place filled with my brothers stupid voice which makes me pissed whenever I hear it and whenever I see him.
And my suggestions are rarely heard by my parents so I figured its better to keep quiet and conserve energy than keep on insisting on certain things.
I don’t ever want to be proactive in family discussions. Whats there to discuss anyway?
So as I always said, I would like to go MIA for a month or so to regain peace in my life OR rent a studio apartment, decorate it with goth, european, korean and sadist styles and live there alone in nirvana.
Being a bright cheerful person really isn’t my forte, I find it disgusting at times when I see people like that when I’m really down and they could live like some jolly fella without a ignorant care in the world.
For god’s sakes the world is so bloody complicated and confusing and negative and if you want to live your life so happily ever after is foolish thinking.
Grow up man you human. Even for a lowly species, your thoughts appear even more lowly than our genetic code.
It’s been a long time, blog.
I’m sick and tired of people telling me things that I already know.
Take my father for example, his basic knowledge is a failure, yet he wants to talk to me about complicated stuff.
And when I outsmart him, he’s pissed.
I mean, don’t try to act and lord over me, human.
Your common knowledge is pitiful.
Also, some others, act as if they don’t have a care in the world.
I hate these kind of ‘innocent’ people that go on living happily ever after.
Because there is no ‘happily ever after’ because everything has an end.
These types of people are who I hate most.
Especially when I’m talking serious stuff that they asked me and they go: oh, whatever…
Hello? This is your fucking problem here, you’re requesting my help and you couldn’t give a shyt when I try to help you?
Also they always give such a stupid face and act like they’re happy with their life.
Lowly. To have no stress nor distress in life cannot get you anywhere.
In a war, this kind of attitude would make you the best candidate for a sacrificial lamb.
Those who live on without a care in the world are weaklings, unable to grasp the contents of this ugly world and instead carry on as some insects going about their daily activity.
Most of the time, only heavy enough trauma like… Death of a close friend or a flirting smirk with Death itself can wake them up from their dreamish reality.
Besides these kind of people, I don’t really like some who are unable to think straighforwardly and to the point.
They veer and steer off course with the subject.
The reason I’m doing this is whatever-not is because I need the end product of this cause , so I have to do it no matter how I dislike nor like it to get to my aim.
The procedure is not important, only the product is.
So stop trying to shortchange it for reasons that only you would understand.
I’m doing things for a reason, for my benefit.
Think with the flow and you would understand my thoughts.
Be realistic and stop crapping about why I did this, why I did that.
I am an entity able to think of cause and effect.
I would naturally do things my way, to my benefit, to my survival.
Reasons are unimportant. What I get to the end of the road is.
Anyways, this post does not refer to anyone else in particular hopefully, just hope that you’re not my type whom I dislike.
Right, moving to my better aquitted types of people.
They would be preferably of my intelligience and able to think of cause and effect status’s.
Those who can have to ability to stress over things and find ways to counter them would be good.
Also, they would have to be more… Realistic.
Understand this world’s feelings, this humanity’s causes.
Being Sadist isn’t important.
As long as you’re able to be of use and able to stress over questions and find answers, it would be best.
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Kay gtg. Got sms le.
Many people wish for the world to be a simpler place to live in.
In fact, it could.
Just by erasing a single world from this cursed world is the solution.
Yes, erase Humanity.
Ahah, there you have it, the best way to have a simple world.
Why, you ask?
That would be because humans make all these needless messes for themselves.
They confuse themselves and others, and create problems, dragging other species in the process.
Take wars as an example, humans fight humans for petty causes.
Land is torched and the air would be filled with stench of the aftermath.
Thus, it seems that humans have this uncanny habit of causing trouble.
Linking back to such a question, the messes that make this world complicated, are caused by the humans themselves.
So, ask yourselves if you are fit for such a ’simpler world’.
We obviously don’t make the mark.
So, to make this world simple, humanity must be taken off Earth’s scales.
Well, the observation continues…
Tonight’s sky is quite the beauty.
Purplish Red. How I wish the sky could be stained with color as red as fresh blood.
The world’s so peaceful.
I wonder where’s that drive of chaos in which humanity have gone.
If I could have three wishes, I would:
1. Wish for the apocalypse
2. Wish for the reconstruction of the world
3. Wish for the creation of a species all the more superior than humans.
Not to include the fact that, after such observation, I’ll gladly kill myself. :3
WARNING: This post is conventional.
Hahas. Since I’ve been successfully selected as Sakae Sushi p/t staff, I would like to boast about it here.
Meh. De Sakae pants like school pants la! Color almost same oso.
I’m wearing [S] size pants la so happy! I’m so slim! ( Self described.)
Diet works!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :3
Hahas. Not like *cough cough Mandy and YF cough cough* that need [M] size skirt hahas.
Larac changed back to [S] size at the last second wtf.
Hahahas. Manpuku food damn expensive! SIBEH EX I NEVER EAT TILL I WAS FULL LOR.
Den went for de Typhoid jab at Raffles Medical.
Larac sibeh scared of de jab rofl.
Anyways, while waiting we watched Wheel of Fortune dere and de ang moh have damn good english!
Knn I haven’t even noe wad de ans is dey alr solve liao. Lmao.
Den de jab was like 5 min nia no kick not pain at all.
Even more no kick den getting cut by cutter lmao.
But got feeling dat de skin kena pricked de doctor like skill not so gd when he take out de needle from Mandy de time de needle stuck for 1 second and I was like wtfh?!?!?!?
Rawr. Den all take de jab le like so happy lol put high class plaster (wtf?) and den went home.
I went home. De trio go shopping.
Nobody wan go LAN or arcade… Zzz.
Actually YF want to go de lor when I say LAN her eyes *SHINE* but den larac said dowan.
Zzzzzz. ~.~
Sibeh tired today sweat alot sia seach for de Apex-Pal building.
Addict shit Ed went to play pool today fuck sia no invite me.
Joy tingled my sadistic nerve.
So, decided to post them here while the thoughts are still fresh!
XD
As we all know, conflict, chaos, sorrow and despair are one of the few motivational energies that are able to push oneself to a higher capability.
Simply put, these are factors that enhance evolution.
Evolution refers to a change in being, moving on from nothing to something.
Different from mutation.
Evolution is for the better of our species, mutation for the worse.
So thus, through evolution, we select those who are capable enough to set foot onto new ground.
To become more powerful, to remain as the top predator in our food chain.
As such, evolution is brought forward by these motivational energies from above stated.
Conflict gives birth to chaos.
And in such chaos we scramble to survive, becoming more powerful unconsciously.
Because such awakens our dormant instinct to survive, to fight, to continue species survival.
Chaos leads to sorrow.
Sorrow would then direct itself to the gate of hate.
As the Bookman in manga D.Gray-Man said once: Wars are pitiful. Death and destruction. Sorrow arises from such. Tragedy gives birth to akuma.
Thus, this shows that sorrow births demons (akuma) which are undoubtedly more powerful than our normal human beings.
Also, those who are unable to move past sorrow, will lead to despair.
Despair would then turn back to hate, tragedy, etc.
It would create more sorrow.
It would create more despair.
It would create evolution.
As you see, this cycle is continuous.
This ensures our minimal evolution.
However, this cycle is about to be broken by prolonged peace.
Conflict is less now.
Without conflict, the cycle could not continue.
Evolution would not occur.
We would be left in the dust as other entities evolve beyond us.
Our top place in the animal kingdom would degrade.
After all the eons of evolution that we have achieved this fate, would we let all that go to waste?
So, evolve humans, create conflict.
History has shown us that through conflict can beings evolve.
To prove that we are the victors in life and genetically superior, all we can do is strive for evolution.
If not, all would be just a facade.
All would be lost.
Well then, this concludes my sadist journey.
Hahas. Ended~
Humans are getting more and more uncivilised nowadays.
More raucous and giving attitude.
That is exactly the reason why mankind is walking down the path to unevolution.
Well then, on such a consensus, people start forgetting about even the basic rudimentary etiquette.
Even I forget it sometimes too.
Whatever. Just make sure I’m there to see the next apocalypse.
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I wish the sun would just run out of hydrogen gas to burn and dry up.
Then a supernova would happen.
The sun would crumble to nothingness, creating a blackhole on our solar system.
Earth would inevitably be sucked into it.
The last few seconds of Earth would be in panic, chaos, despair.
Darkness would finally engulf humankind.
The most precious object that allows us to survive, destroyed.
Delighting.
I just hope I’ll be there for such an occasion where I could record the last moments of humanity.
The day humanity took stepped down from the last flight of stairs, defeated.
Seriously, I really hate frolicking with lifestock all day.
Some are barely making the mark as lifestock.
They are of lower beings than that.
Hmm… Parasites and defects.
Well then, judging humans ain’t an easy task.
Till now, I have seen mostly normal people (which I don’t call lifestock yet), and a couple of parasites in my family.
Defects can be found at any handicapped parking lot around.
So, in summary, I really hate humanity making it’s destructive course through nature.
Always, I call my brother ‘parasite’ and ‘genetically inferior lowlife’ because that’s all he’s worth.
He doesn’t even have half a millionth quarter of my brain. Talk about nano size.
I mean, he failed subjects since P1.
Wow. It takes a hell lotta effort to try failing. P1 standard is no standard.
And until now, he’s been failing all the way like a book dejected lowlife.
So like… He’s P4 now. Failing. As always.
So as I say, he’s really a parasite that leeches off family funds to do nothing.
Talk about waste of human resources.
He’s not even making effort to improve.
What he does all day is float around the house with his dirty feet and throwing tamper tandrums and shouting random shit.
All the money funding him to study and survive might as well go to me. I’ll invest well in it.
So, back to the beginning, he was not even supposed to be born to suck off my portion of money.
We don’t need parasites in our elitist society.
Although I may not be a top elite, but I’m at least making the mark within that range.
Not like him who is waaaaay down in the food chain.
Nobody even wants parasites to sacrifice anymore. They’re just too useless.
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Woa unconsciously typed out so much sadist stuff hahas.
Cool man.
So maybe this blog won’t be conventional after all!
